It is a sad time in our life right now. Last week we had to put our loving Oso to sleep. I have had Oso since he was 6 weeks. I bottle fed him for a week. It was February of 2004, my ex husband and I had been TTC for a year or so with no luck. I had wanted a dog for some time, but didn't have the money to buy one and in VA the adoption process is so lenghty and complicated. Fortunately I had a classmate that worked at a Vet. Emergency Center. So they had taken a German Shepard away from its owner because she was being abused and she was pregnant. She had her pupps while in custody and the order was to return the dog to its owner, but not the pupps. So they were looking for homes for all the pupps, only Oso was left. So we went to look at him. As soon as we walked in he ran to me and licked my face. His name at the time was Lionel. He didn't look like a Lionel .. he looked like a cub. I immediately named him Oso. So, ever since then he became my son. He was really hyper and nervous and was on meds for a long time, but I managed to still love and have patience with him. Unfortunately his condition became worse, and he attacked my ex husband on July 4th. He was terrified of the fireworks so he lost it. The following week on July 9th he was taken in. Denisse was very upset, they had a special bond that began even before she was born. Every now and then.. in the middle of the night I miss him. I miss hearing his snores and his sighs. I love him, always will.
Denisse has started gymaastics. She is loving it. I think this is the sport for her. She enjoys tumbling and cartwheels and all that stuff. So she goes every Tuesday. She passed the second grade. She is officially a Third grader, almost a big kid. She has come out of her shell a lot. She talks to people and kids, and when they ask her why she doesn't talk to them at first she says that its because she is a very shy person. She is growing into this beautiful human being and I can't believe she is mine.
My weight loss struggle continues, after losing a lot of weight I gained most of it back plus 10 more lbs. PCOS is kicking my ass and I don't know if I have the strength to fight back anymore. I feel my life sucks at the moment. I work and work and work and it all goes towards bills and rent. Though I finally finished paying off the car my ex husband drives. Isn't that something, paying for a car that I dont even drive. I have decided to document my struggles with PCOS on my Vlog so hopefully I don't lose interest in that. Maybe weekly updates and in between if I need it. Its better if I express my frustration, because its part of being human.
I am also looking for a place to live. Something permanent, maybe a mobile home or a 2bed 1 bath condo, just for Denisse and I. Hopefully thats something that I can do this year. There is a possibility of me moving to WI, but I don't think I will take that opportunity. I do not think its in the best interest of Denisse. Well that's my update. Sorry for taking so long.
