WOW!!!
Its been a while...sorry ..got distracted by..well reality...
Denisse is doing great! Well considering she is has been officially diagnosed with Selective Mutism, she is not struggling in school, in fact if it weren't for her little issue she would be probably be in first grade. She has one friend as she did last year, her name is Sabrina, very nice little girl and her mom is nice too.
Denisse, her father and I went to Disneyland for her 5th birthday...she had a blast, it was a fun trip but for the second year in a row she got sick on our way back.
Prior to our trip, we had a HUGE scare with her health, she was admitted to the hospital with Meningitis, luckily it was Viral and we were there only for 3 days. It started with her complaining of a headache for a couple days and then one day when she came home from school, her dad texted me saying that she had fallen asleep when she came home. Denisse has not taken a nap since she turned 1, so I knew something was wrong, she had fallen at school a couple days before, that the headaches and now her lethargy made me think head injury. I have had a huge issue with Kaiser hospitals but THANKFULLY I had a very competent ER doc that quickly thought it was meningitis, the next day Denisse woke up OK but quickly deteriorated and spent the rest of the day with her temp spiking, she had fluids and IV antibiotic as prophylaxis...it was very scary. ..she has since then been fine with a couple flare ups of her GERD.
As for me...well...*sigh*...I have officially filed for bankruptcy...A one house income plus all the other bills and previous debt was too much, it was very painful to realize that I could no longer do it, the day before filing I cried the whole day, felt useless and just plain awful, the day of I was OK ..and the day after like nothing....
Unfortunately that is just the beginning, I have a whole lot of past due bills, and will be struggling for a few months...to be honest I had to sell a gold bracelet and a ring to get money for groceries this week...its embarrassing to admit, BUT I know I am not the only one out there in this situation and not talking about it and pretending its not helping anyone...I cant sit here and just write when everything is peachy and perfect...Those who know me ..know that everything is upfront..the good, the bad and the ugly...Now some of you may be asking what about her dad? Well he just completed his AA in Business Programming and well there are no jobs out there, so he has been applying everywhere with no luck...He will be moving back in temporarily as he doesn't have financial aid anymore since he is not going to school, so he cant pay for the room he was staying in. I suggested he go back to school for his BS, which he would get in 2 years, yes I know I'm too good, but I am thinking of the future as well, if he has a better job my daughter will be better off. He declined and said that he will consider it later but he needs to feel useful...
It was hard to explain to Denisse that this was only for "a little bit" and that daddy will not be staying forever...Even when he lived here I never really saw him and I can't be a fucked up person. It will be like before, like roommates, he will have his life I will have mine.
Well.. that's the brief recap of the past 6 months...I will try to keep you guys updated and posted...but I just lose inspiration at times....
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