So for about a week now I stopped one of my antidepressants. I hadn't felt the effects of that, until today. I felt very heavy, very dark. I started to have thoughts that I shouldn't be having.
I expected this, but wasn't ready for the severity of it. I had not felt this dark for a couple years now. Yes I had sad days... Bad days ...but like this, its been a while. I feel scared. I feel like this may set mr back. So why am I doing this?
Well. I have been wanting to do it for a while. Being on an antidepressant wasn't supposed to be a permanent thing. So I decided it was time. I want Denisse to have a mom that isn't popping pills all the time, a mom that doesn't depend on them.
I don't want to be an elderly woman on meds to control her. I want to wake up one day...and be happy. Not because I took a pill but because I truly am.
Hopefully, this will pass soon. Hopefully I can wake up and feel happy.
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